Don't want to sound like a douchebag (actually, I do), but with an attitude like that, life is gonna suck no matter WHAT happens. Even if it does load, you'll bitch about how incomplete/buggy/developmental it is. Even if it was perfect, you'll bitch about how the aliens are raping you, anally, orally and through every possible orifice on your sorry body.
You say life is HARD. That you never get any breaks. NO, life is EASY. I goofed off in highschool, still got in a decent university (University of Toronto), goofed off in university, still graduated with honors, and got a decent job that pays above average even at entry level.
Take the time to evaluate the things you have in life. You're posting in the board, downloading games and surfing reddit, so obviously your life isn't as piteous as you claim it to be. Someone has to have paid for your computer and internet.